I haven't updated my LJ in forever, but it felt appropriate now.

I've always sort of feared when the day a band I love would disband would come... and now it's happened.

I first heard D'espairsRay in late 2005. Found the video to Garnet on a website that had a lot of Jrock PVs. I immediately liked them and later on I saw the video to Born.

I became a fan in 2006 and I also saw them live for the first time that year, in Copenhagen, Denmark. I was on my own, but I had a blast. I nearly cried when my grandparents came to pick me when it was over up because I just wanted to go back in there and have the concert start all over again.

The next year, in the summer they came to my country, Sweden. I went with an online friend, Emma and one of her friends, Nubia. The crowd was ridiculously rowdy and Nubia pulled me out of it to stand on the side instead where we could see everything without getting crushed. I had a great time once again and left the concert having gained a new friend in Nubia.
They also had a signing the day before the concert that I went to. They had just released MIRROR and were signing the booklets in a record store in Stockholm. I bought my copy of MIRROR there anad got it signed by all four members. I was so nervous and excited I was shaking and it was probably the most exciting 30 seconds of my life, lmao.

The summer of 2009 was the last time I saw them, also in Sweden. I had a terrible tonsil infection that left me in excruciating pain and yet I was determined to go. I took a cocktail of painkillers (that only made the pain somewhat bearable) and got my ass there. I couldn't really sing along or be as lively as I would've liked, but I had a great time anyway. I remember when they played "Forbidden" and I closed my eyes and felt like I was the only person in the venue. One of my favourite songs of theirs.

Hearing that they've decided to disband was... a shock. I had expected them to come back. I guess I didn't realise how bad Hizumi's throat condition was. In the end, his recovery is the most important thing, but of course I will still miss them a lot. I have many great memories of them and their music will always mean a lot to me.

Thank you for all these years, D'espairsRay! I hope we can meet again someday.

On immunity's request, here is my (meager) GazettE collection!

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So I just got my hair cut. This is what it looked like before:



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heresy geisha 11:35 pm
(23:35:52):     if there was a fandom for tea sets i bet youd be writing fanfic about teapots doing it wouldnt u u sicko LMFAO JK
odaxelagnial 11:36 pm
(23:36:03):     o fuck yea pourin dat milk

lol at everyone freaking out over ruki's throat infection. i've had a bloody throat infection (well okay, tonsil infection) which sucked hardcore and i was in massive pain for days, had trouble talking, drinking and eating because my tonsils were so swollen, but he ain't dying or something so chill the fuck out. it'll go away with rest, painkillers and no smoking.

people take things way too fucking seriously in this fandom. it's like when he had stomach flu and people were acting as if he had stomach cancer or some shit.

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SO. I just got home from England. Lots of stuff happened and I shall tell you about them all. :) The internet at home aint working at the moment so I can't show any pics :/ I'm on my laptop with mobile broadband atm.

Anyways, here goes.

( Cut for my tales of adventures and woes )

ENGLAND TIEMS. so i'm leaving in like half an hour, and i'm so nervous. butterflies in my stomach and everything. i hate flying :/ but it'll feel better once i'm actually there. i hope my bag will pass as hand luggage cuz i aint paying like £30 to check it in. (fuck you ryanair.)

anyway, i'm going to torrential_pain's wedding on Saturday and then I get home on Monday :) so don't miss me too much!

ilu guyz <3